TMI ??? ~ It's Sharing Time

I have been keeping a secret.

My world has been falling apart...

bit by bit.

Before sharing what has been going on in my world I need to share something about blogging. I like to read and write posts about interesting things and share pretty pictures. But sometimes life gets in the way. 

You may know that I have been posting less and less and that I have stopped hosting the Bunny Hop Party. Hopefully It will start up again in September.

I try to stay positive for the most part. Like I did in last week's post, sharing how I am trying to become a better me. I try not to burden anyone with too many details of my real life because I know we are all dealing with issues. 

However, I do like to visit blogs that share a bit of their personal life. To me that gives the blog more dimension. I love to read posts that include family life!

I want to share something beautiful that has recently happened in my world. A new addition to my family. A new life and new hope.

Here is a picture of my beautiful great-granddaughter Paisley. It will probably be a few more months until I can see her in person. What I want most is to kiss her fuzzy little head and smell her sweet little baby smell.



Warning...

 If you want more pretty pictures today, then you might as well leave now...  because I am about to share a novel, not a picture book :) Yes, this is a long whiny post!

The other day I got some nice comments and emails after my this post about my new 'me' project. Thank you all for being so sweet! But when I read that you thought I was an inspiration... I felt like such a phony. (I will explain why in the second half of this post.) It's true that I was feeling good that day and I was certainly telling the truth about my new project, but I am just going to put it out there... I am struggling.

But first... 

For those of you who are wondering why I am promoting my new business venture on my blog, let me explain. I like these products and I hope they might be of interest to others. I will only share what I have tried and and can feel good about!

I like the way my face looks and feels after using the facial wrap. The body wrap treatment tightens up the saggy skin on my tummy, thighs, arms, and neck. I also take some supplements. I feel less anxious and can concentrate better since taking the Confianza. I am going to continue to try out more of their products. Yes, it can get a bit expensive but I am a loyal customer and so I get a discount!

As for sharing the business part of it? Well I think some of you might be interested in that as well. It is a company that has had great success so far and has even been written about in a few big money magazines and papers. My only complaint is that the website is not as consumer friendly as I would like it to be so feel free to contact me for any help.

Another reason for doing this... 

I desperately need to have something productive to do. Blogging cost me money, even at the thrift stores. I would like to meet people (in person!) and also make some money. Working outside the home is not an option at this time. 

I am not able to leave the house for long stretches of time.  Between health issues and two dogs (we can't allow the dogs to go in and out on their own as our backyard is on the golf course). Yes, our home is in a private community with a golf course. But it is just as upside down as so many homes are, or we would gladly sell it. We just can't afford to "pay" to get out of  this home... like we did on the sale of our last home. 
Eventually funds just. run. out.

So why is my life falling apart?

 My regular longtime visitors are aware of this years mishaps and missteps. The job changes my husband has gone through means that he now works in North Dakota... 1,600 miles away from our home in Palm Desert.

The job (for an environmental company) that  originally brought us to this HOT desert home two years closed down after 18 months...  just five months after we bought our new home. The only job my husband could find after that was in San Diego, a two hour drive away... and for quite a bit less money. You may remember that the job ended, on a bad note, after about nine months.

Up until that time my husband had never been without a good job. But these are different times. He finally got a new job in North Dakota and has been flying home to "visit" every three weeks. That one week home has been great... but the three weeks away are miserable. I don't get out much and the rest of my family is 1,200 miles away, in another direction.

Now this company is also failing. 

I am not surprised as it is a part of the original company that brought us to California in the first place. I know! But when someone offers you a job and insurance you just have to take it! The only good thing now is that my husband will not have to endure the minus 40 degree winters of North Dakota. Living in a motor home and working outside in that climate is mighty hard on anyone.

It is still up in the air as to what path our journey will take. I do know that we are not the only ones who are having major life changes due to these hard financial times. Thankfully we do not have young children at home, but being out of a job at 60 years old (with an underwater mortgage) is not so good either. 
Btw... retirement is not an option.

Why am I sharing this?

Because it is reality and I know 

I am not alone. 

I know that some of you will feel uncomfortable reading this. Your world might be just a little bit rosier than mine. Or you might be dealing with worse problems.

Yes, I know things could be worse... 
that's what scares me.

xoxo
Bunny Jean

Edit: I am feeling so much better. I have been getting help by learning my energy type and not worrying so much... with the help of daily affirmations. 

If you are interested you can check out Carol Tuttle's Energy Profiling. She had many resources to help you get in touch and heal yourself.